Wednesday 21 October 2009

Wednesday 21st October 2009

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Tuesday 20 October 2009

Double negative resolving to a negative


This Guy came up to me today and said very drunkenly "I don't give a fuck about nothing" and I thought hay that's a double negative which essentially means that you in fact do give a fuck about something?? I thought I'd engage him with my theory on double negatives but he proceeded to wee himself (only joking) So I would imagine that the fact that he is drunk and probably cold and its only 2 o'clock in the afternoon, that their is something on this guys mind, or maybe he really doesn't give a fuck??


I'd like to say "I don't give a fuck about nothing" but that would be a lie, I really give a fuck about to many things!
Maybe when we stop caring, and start remembering to enjoy ourselves we actually start to have lives again! I recently applied for a position at Leeds College of Arts and I didn't even get invited to the interview. I spent 5 days writing this application and it got proof read by one of the most academic people that I know, I didn't even get asked for the interview? Absolute bastards!
I don't watch TV so, even though I like TV as a format for entertainment and have written quite a few proposals for it. I don't watch it, as Antiques Road show and the news couldn't justify the Licensee fee, its basically crap! and a huge waste of time, people just zone in on it and go to bed. Like they don't have to think or really have lives as they are to busy watching an actor living a pretend one on the screen.
So I had this idea, sent to it a few companies... I got this reply "I believe Channel 4 have exclusive rights to You Tube footage, therefore we would not be able to get this idea off the ground here" I was like... well I dont think they 'Ch4' do own the rights? so I contacted them and they confirmed it, So do you want to go ahead and make this then? and they responded ...."unfortunately clip-based shows are problematic and costly for us in terms of rights clearances for repeats and sales on our current restricted budgets. Therefore it's a pass"
So in the words of my good freind that I met today, "I don't give a fuck about nothing"

Saturday 17 October 2009

I love and hate Art


I have a post-graduate in Education, and I'm exploring the idea of applying to do a PHD in, 'The Phenomena of cultural celebration' I plan to circumnavigate the globe in search of the greatest festivals on the Planet exploring the phenomena that is the celebration of the human spirit. My aim is not to go as a spectator but as a participant, I’m going to go to Timbuktu and go to the Worlds most Remote Music festival in the Sahara Dessert, Go to the Largest gathering of people on Earth at the Kumbh Mela, Play Samba in Rio Carnival, Help celebrate the Penis in Japan, restore the balance between the heavens and the Sea in Sumba, Cause Civic Chaos in Peru. It will be a documentary of Cultural exploration and Celebration. Why do we Celebrate? what makes people come together and party? what cultural significances are associated with these gatherings? The PHD is away of possibly seeing this project through as it will have an investigative, educational backing, its my Punk way of trying to see a project through when all the other avenues, TV production companies, Publishers have all said a resounding NO! Its also a way of getting a PHD in Partying, You can call me Dr Party


Why do I Love art? I love Art because, I'm alive, and I keep saying that to myself specially recently with all the deaths that have surrounded my life. I recently Lost a friend of mine that I went to School with, Terry Wallace He was found overdose on the beach from smack. He was a bit of a nutter, but ultimately a good mate, went on Holiday with him, and great as back up in a School full of boys that want to fight you all the time. (Rest in Peace Terry) My Aunty also recently died which was heart breaking!


So what does all this have to with Art, because I think possibly I could have been found on that beach, if it wasn't for a sense of purpose. For a direction, for the ablity to take hold of my ideas and throw them out to the World. As I'm sitting here Im considering doing a PHD, I might be skint and noone wants to give me a Job, or buy any paintings, in which I think are really beautyful. But Im alive and making Art and I'm alive thats why I love Art.


Ivory Tower




I struggle as an Artist/Writer/ Lecturer, and I wish I didn't have to start of my blog with those word's but I do, and its a fact. I struggle because I find and have always found gaining employment difficult, earning money has seemed to left me by the wayside, any time I try it seems it leaves me in more debt (I don't really have lots but...) Richard Branson most defiantly has more money then me.

On a monthly basis Virgin Media, due to me being a little rubbish with paying bills on time, due to the fact I have very little money. Sir Dick/ charges me £10 for late payment + £5 for paper billing?? Paper billing? =£5 so on top of the £18 I have £15. This leaves me in a spiral of amounting costs that on the £50 a week that I get from the dole leaves me in the shit and more debt. Richard Branson is worth 1.5 Billion and is 261 in the Forbes rich list. When he takes my £10 he pretty much takes my last £10, my last £10, I doubt that concept is even in his v rich vocabulary.

In my World if someone is having difficulty with Money, the last thing you do is, make there life more harder. But maybe that's where I go wrong.

What then becomes the most annoying of this situation that I'm trying desperately to avoid, is the 20 minute phone call at 6p a minute unless you phone their land line up and ask for costumer services (01132932000) and then its free. To try and get reconnected, I have the most fowl mouthed scum bag giving me attitude.

All I want to do is,have a reasonably secure regular income doing something that I love to do, teaching in FE, or selling my paintings, or my synopsis's for TV or utilise my Creativity some how.

I just don't understand how people/companies can screw the poorer of society out of there few pennies just to line the pockets of the super rich so we can fund some space super rich tourist attraction in the dessert. I don't want to wish harm on anyone but I do hope that Richard and his cohorts, in there spaceship have some kind of power failure.... whilst in space